Do you think God changes up our plans- rocks our foundation, takes away everything we thought could be- just to prove that we're not in control, and never were? I'm losing this vision of what I thought might come to pass. I'm wondering why I am where I am. I'm wondering if I've failed in some way, to see the things I wanted here and now and in the near future, disappear. Is God just saying, wait for it?
Or, "That just shook you up so much that I'm the only one who can pick you back up again."
I wish I had some sort of clear vision. Anything at all. I feel like I've been set adrift, even though I know in my heart I'm still being held by Him.
Maybe he's saying, "Make Me your vision and everything else will fall into place."
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art...
You've never failed me before, why do I feel betrayed?
Is this all discipline? I welcome the thought that I might be a better person on the other side...but so much fire? So much uncertainty? Another break...I get it. We need to be broken over and over and over and over and over again to be built up again, new.
Two things you told me, you are strong and you love me.
